diara

 canne me

can see clear change afer starting to cinsume going out in morning spending hours in car sipping cofee and listening to misuc ful vol

talking to mom sometime

did some violent actions like working oout on stone...swimming in cold water with head in..almost rried to nbreak my pd phone

spoke to mom and arguing with ther over something

guilty for the behaviour 

waiting fo the calls

thinking about how they are

what they would be doing in bad sense

calling back very first in morning

master bate toy hours

smoke home

anxious wiht people coming in 

smelling the smoke

my behaviour

calls

going to columbia

no calls

only meet

and greet

india

going and staying 6 months

fear of covid

fear of her

fear of pros

fear of mom texts

trying for ganj

drink9ing and eating

talking less

taking less

no social

mostly alone

home-pros-driving-restau

dad fear

no reply to my worries

waking me up for job at nights

guilty of not dallas

no working

no helping to move

no paying rent on time

no inviting much

no scoializing uch

mom home

rohan home

night shift gressh

pro-greesh-drama fear

morning sleeping 

me smoking and drawinf

no food 

no help

order and eat

frnds no proper host

no help prodv

no help bhv